Life and Death, Love and Loss

by The Ruddy Ruckus

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This album was recorded in my bedroom during the end of the summer of 2013. This album was mixed in my bedroom, Mills Memorial Library at McMaster University and sometimes on the bus going to downtown Hamilton. This album was mastered in my bedroom.

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released April 23, 2014

Rob Brown

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The Ruddy Ruckus Hamilton, Ontario

Rob Brown, native resident of the steel town Hamilton, Ontario, shares his feelings of angst and anguish through his songs which often serve as autobiographical accounts of his life. Love, loss, life, and death are common themes in the music of The Ruddy Ruckus which are complimented by uplifting vocal melodies and relentless rhythmic guitar jamming. ... more

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Track Name: It's A Shithole That We Call Home
as i lie here alone a lamp on by my bed
i recount all the days that you've been in my head
all the times that we shared and the wars that we fought
i thought you'd remember me i guess you forgot

it's a shithole that we call home
it's a shithole that we call home
it's a shithole that we call home
it's a shithole that we call home

the sidewalks and storefronts that line the main strip
the working class ghosts who've had enough of it
i gaze upon boys who are covered in dirt
and sweet little girls who like they've been hurt

it's a shithole that we call home
it's a shithole that we call home
it's a shithole that we call home
it's a shithole that we call home

my mother is weeping in the room next to mine
she's telling herself that everything's fine
she thinks that i'm sleeping i'm wide awake
and i don't know how much more of this i can take

it's a shithole that we call home
it's a shithole that we call home
it's a shithole that we call home
it's a shithole that we call home

you gave me hope for the future you filled my dreams full of light
but i'm guessing my dreams weren't as real as they seem and you won't be coming home with me tonight

this life is as hard as a stone or a brick
and home is a hole that's filled in with shit
my heart it grows fonder for you every day
distance makes the heart grow at least that's what they say

it's a shithole that we call home
it's a shithole that we call home
it's a shithole that we call home
it's a shithole that we call home

it's a shithole that we call home
it's a shithole that we call home
it's a shithole that we call home
it's a shithole that we call home
Track Name: Throw It Up To The Sky
holding on to the past like to pin on a hand grenade
giving each moment love like a serenade
these challenges and obstacles that block the road from view
i clear my thoughts and think only of the truth

and you with your way you see the world i see its beautiful
and you give me optimism hope in spite of cataclysm

if you got a funny feeling or a story to tell
ignore the callings of the devils in your own little hell
we ain't got time to lose we got a battle to win
let your heart open up and revolution begin
if you're feeling that you don't know what the world's all about
don't worry mate just take a guess and then just work it all out
we ain't got time to live if we got time to die
remove the weight from your back and throw it up to the sky

rewrite each song as if it were a eulogy
and sing along as if it were just you and me
love for your fellows proclaimed across this desert land
that's how i see the world the future is at hand

and you with your way you see the world i see its beautiful
and you give me optimism hope in spite of cataclysm

if you got a funny feeling or a story to tell
ignore the callings of the devils in your own little hell
we ain't got time to lose we got a battle to win
let your heart open up and revolution begin
if you're feeling that you don't know what the world's all about
don't worry mate just take a guess and then just work it all out
we ain't got time to live if we got time to die
remove the weight from your back and throw it up to the sky

i see the wax of a brighter world burning tonight
the smell of change in the air and i'm feeling alright
does anybody know how far we're going to go
either way i feel fine

if you got a funny feeling or a story to tell
ignore the callings of the devils in your own little hell
we ain't got time to lose we got a battle to win
let your heart open up and revolution begin
if you're feeling that you don't know what the world's all about
don't worry mate just take a guess and then just work it all out
we ain't got time to live if we got time to die
remove the weight from your back and throw it up to the sky
Track Name: To The Curb
while you stand there with cigarette smoke comin' out your lips
i remember when i used to be your tender lovin' kiss
those times are over we're at the golden era's end
so i lie here all alone tonight willing to pretend

so if you kick my ass to the curb
i promise i won't cry or say a word
and you can drive away and never look back at my face
i promise i won't show you that it hurts

so you drink to health and happiness i drink to pain
i wanna be so numb that i never feel a thing again
world so lonely though it's filled with seven billion
i want is one, the one that i would give a million

so if you kick my ass to the curb
i promise i won't cry or say a word
and you can drive away and never look back at my face
i promise i won't show you that it hurts
Track Name: Concept Of Love
i've been known to sing the blues
i've been known to cry
when life is a mess and there's clouds overhead
when it rains it pours inside

but i'm not going to stand here and lie
no i'm not going to stand here and lie

when the cup's overflowing and the cold winds are blowing
do you look to the stars up above
when the candle's burnt out and there's no understanding
of a tangible concept of love

i've been beaten black and blue
i've been known to fall
in love with those who run from me
who let me waste it all

but i'm not going to stand here and lie
no i'm not going to stand here and lie

when the cup's overflowing and the cold winds are blowing
do you look to the stars up above
when the candle's burnt out and there's no understanding
of a tangible concept of love

guess i never thought you'd deceive me
how i liked it when you teased me
you played with my head as i laid in bed
searching for light in the dark

when the cup's overflowing and the cold winds are blowing
do you look to the stars up above
when the candle's burnt out and there's no understanding
of a tangible concept of love

when the cup's overflowing and the cold winds are blowing
do you look to the stars up above
when the candle's burnt out and there's no understanding
of a tangible concept of love

when the cup's overflowing and the cold winds are blowing
do you look to the stars up above
when the candle's burnt out and there's no understanding
of a tangible concept of love
Track Name: Family's Name
i've been broken i've been fixed
just tryna make some sense of this
i've seen the world on fire in my eyes tonight
shadow of the apocalypse
see these hands all worn down
i tell you girl well they've been around
they've felt the bitter winter of a tragic year
they look like broken porcelain now

and i swear it's not as fine as it may seem
cause it feels like i'm living in a bad dream

don't look back on the shame that dishonors your family's name
hide your tears hide your cries hide your pain
don't give up on the fight on the war the save your life
up in arms with just a voice that cuts like a knife

ash to ash dust to dust
my body's aching from all this rust
gotta shake these cobwebs off my heart
gotta learn to love and trust
girl i tell you, you're a star
don't let em tell you who you are
you've got a world on fire at your fingertips
i know you're going to go so far

and i swear it's not as fine as it may seem
cause it feels like i'm living in a bad dream

don't look back on the shame that dishonors your family's name
hide your tears hide your cries hide your pain
don't give up on the fight on the war the save your life
up in arms with just a voice that cuts like a knife

you gotta learn to let it go
learn to let it go
learn to let it go

na nauh na na nana na na
na nauh na na na
na nauh na na nauh na na
nana na nana na nauh na
na nauh na na nana na na
na nauh na na na
na nauh na na nauh na na
nana na nana na nauh na

don't look back on the shame that dishonors your family's name
hide your tears hide your cries hide your pain
don't give up on the fight on the war the save your life
up in arms with just a voice that cuts like a knife
Track Name: Roy
and the man who'd boast the biggest grin
would slowly fade in time
let it go me girl let it go me girl
can't you see that he's lost his mind

oh the memories and the photographs
that preserve the golden age
and the echoes of laughter that haunt these walls
are what get me through the day
he was a man of pride a man so full of love
that he shared with all he knew
so i wonder how it was justified
he was taken from us so soon

and the man who'd boast the biggest grin
would slowly fade in time
let it go me girl let it go me girl
can't you see that he's lost his mind

as the years went by he'd show his softer side
as he hurtled to the end
unbeknownst to us it would come sooner than
the expectations of his friends
it was a typical day he went to drive away
he looked left before looking right
inched ahead, he looked upon a woman's face
on the brakes with all her might

and the man who'd boast the biggest grin
would slowly fade in time
let it go me girl let it go me girl
can't you see that he's lost his mind

seven years ago i wish that i had known
that time was running out
oh the things i'd say i'd live out everyday
i'd make every second count

the man who'd boast the biggest grin
would slowly fade in time
let it go me girl let it go me girl
can't you see that he's lost his mind

as his eyes rolled back and basic functions failed
he forgot all of our names
but that did nothing to stop his loving wife
from visiting every day
and with the nurses round she'd tell him stories and
lace her fingers inside his
and if i didn't know what it meant before
now i know that's what true love is

and the man who'd boast the biggest grin
would slowly fade in time
let it go me girl let it go me girl
can't you see that he's lost his mind
and the man who'd boast the biggest grin
would slowly fade in time
let it go me girl let it go me girl
can't you see that he's lost his mind
Track Name: Legacy
dying shouldn't be an option when you're that young
what's left are guilty feelings memories and songs unsung
though your legacies will be painted across the sky
i'll miss the bigger picture that included you and i

the bitter and the empathetic heed the warning don't forget it
the bitter and the empathetic heed the warning don't forget it

this is for the young at heart who lose their lives before they start
the victims and the families of the dead
this is for the one's alive the strangers who walk right on by
the lesser men who walk this world instead

i walked through the cemeteries of my hometown
saw a couple of stones that stood out so i wrote their contents down
"here lilly lies" she was sixteen when she died
a flower wilted much too soon before its time

the bitter and the empathetic heed the warning don't forget it
the bitter and the empathetic heed the warning don't forget it

this is for the young at heart who lose their lives before they start
the victims and the families of the dead
this is for the one's alive the strangers who walk right on by
the lesser men who walk this world instead

i woner if my life will end soon, if i will die
i've got a couple of friends that i would hate to leave behind
and i'm no flower i stand strong against the wind
but maybe that's not enough, but maybe that's not enough

this is for the young at heart who lose their lives before they start
the victims and the families of the dead
this is for the one's alive the strangers who walk right on by
the lesser men who walk this world instead
Track Name: Lady Love
this song's for my lady love she's a perfect angel from above
her eyes are bluer than the ocean's rocky waves
her hair is gold her skin is fair her lips so soft they're barely there
she means the world to me and everything i know

and if she were to fall apart tonight
i'd take her hand and take her to the light

before the summer wind takes her away
there's something that I feel I have to say
the longing for her touch which roams across my aching mind
my darling lady love will you be mine

i met her not long ago when I was barely skin and bones
she lit the room up like a lighthouse when she smiled
my jaw fell and my heart raced what to do no time to waste
i knew that i would have to go the extra mile

and if she were to hold my hand tonight
i'm sure that she could make me come alive

before the summer wind takes her away
there's something that I feel I have to say
the longing for her touch which roams across my aching mind
my darling lady love will you be mine
before the summer wind takes her away
there's something that I feel I have to say
the longing for her touch which roams across my aching mind
my darling lady love will you be mine
Track Name: M
while we walk along the sidewalks down the pavement of our lives
there's an anguish taking over deep inside me sharp as knives
and I'm sure you're unaware you'd take my hand or let me go
you're dangling you're finger tips just out of reach as cold as snow
and your enemies are jealous of your lack of masquerade
they don't know how to gain mastery of all your subtle ways
you shine in the hearts of many but you burn so bright in mine
so I'm thinking of a way to put myself inside your mind

you're just a break in the war
you're just a name to ease the pain
of waking up every day all alone
you're skin and bones but you're like home
and I'm falling all over myself just to get you say you feel the same

your posture's got me hypnotized the stance of confidence
your shining hair your emerald eyes these things about you don't make sense
and I wish that you had kept your heart and not sold it away
cause to tell the truth I swear to you I'd fight for it every day
but as it stands I know that you've got eyes for someone else
and it pains me to acknowledge this to play the cards you dealt
it's so hard to stand so idle while you stand in front of me
in your blissful blinding ignorance a friend is all you see

you're just a break in the war
you're just a name to ease the pain
of waking up every day all alone
you're skin and bones but you're like home
and I'm falling all over myself just to get you say you feel the same
you're just a break in the war
you're just a name to ease the pain
of waking up every day all alone
you're skin and bones but you're like home
and I'm falling all over myself just to get you say you feel the same
Track Name: Goodbye Forever
and you say you're moving away
to fulfil those dreams you have when you're asleep
who knows maybe I'll be ok
cause your shadow will keep me company

all this time I've kept you in mind
as I kept my distance to dilute the pain
of standing by when you fell in love
and your careless whispers never touched my name

I don't know if it's too late
to tell you all the things I never said
the battle rages on inside
you ask of me the reason why
I can't let go of you and I

darkness falls over the crowd
and suddenly to you I'm just another face
so I take your hand and pull you aside
to watch the magic die in outer space

I don't know if it's too late
to tell you all the things I never said
the battle rages on inside
you ask of me the reason why
I can't let go of you and I

watching the silent trauma of stars
while reflecting on the lives we've led so far
burning as we huddle together
knowing deep down who we really are

I don't know if it's too late
to tell you all the things I never said
the battle rages on inside
you ask of me the reason why
I can't let go of you and I
I don't know if it's too late
to tell you all the things I never said
the battle rages on inside
you ask of me the reason why
I can't let go of you and I